No-one Would Miss Me

from JoeUser Forums

Sitting here tonight I realized that if I were to depart this mortal coil right now no-one would really miss me all that much. That's a sobering thought. There really isn't anyone with whom I am all that close these days who would pay more than a passing notice of the fact that I was no longer taking up space or using up air on this little planet.

There are a few who care about me, yes, but none at all with whom I am actually close and who would truly experience a vacuum in their life if I were suddenly gone. In essence, I just don't matter.

Wow. Isn't that a hell of a thought. 47 years on this planet and that's pretty much the crux of the biscuit, I just do not matter all that much to anyone.

Damn.

Well, in a way it's liberating too. I can check out and not worry about it hurting anyone. That's the flipside of that coin isn't it?

Dark thoughts on a dark eve. The moon has set for the night but the sun will surely rise again on the morrow. Life will continue it's painful trodding towards the inevitable.

 

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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top

Funny thing this post just made me realize. A good man will see (whether correctly or incorrectly) from time to time and it will bring him low. But a lowlife, a real sorry motherfucker, that the world really WOULD NOT miss and indeed would be way better off without never gives such an idea as "being missed" the slightest passing thought notion and goes about his daily business.

YOU are a good man, Mason.

Reply #2 from Stardock Forums Top

I hear ya, the holidays can suck when your single. Just having lost your mother is amplifying there suckyness for you I'm sure. It's a new year Mason live it well and those to follow, don't hesitate to care and to love and you'll live on in the hearts of many when it's over.

 

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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top

Quoting RoyLevosh, reply 1
Funny thing this post just made me realize. A good man will see (whether correctly or incorrectly) from time to time and it will bring him low. But a lowlife, a real sorry motherfucker, that the world really WOULD NOT miss and indeed would be way better off without never gives such an idea as "being missed" the slightest passing thought notion and goes about his daily business.

YOU are a good man, Mason.
End of RoyLevosh's quote

Thanks dude.

Reply #4 from JoeUser Forums Top

Quoting stubbyfinger, reply 2
I hear ya, the holidays can suck when your single. Just having lost your mother is amplifying there suckyness for you I'm sure. It's a new year Mason live it well and those to follow, don't hesitate to care and to love and you'll live on in the hearts of many when it's over.

 
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Thanks. I was feeling pretty damn low last night but eventually went to bed. Sleep helped as it often does.

Reply #5 from Stardock Forums Top

I don't even know ya...and I would miss ya!

Reply #6 from Stardock Forums Top

I was feeling pretty damn low last night but eventually went to bed. Sleep helped as it often does.
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I think many many people across this country will remember you and your netting ....

you know what i think? ... your ecig are not working |-) ....

smoke a real one ... and may be it will get you out if this doldrums

Reply #7 from Stardock Forums Top

Even though I've been pretty quiet on the blogging front, I do keep checking for news from you Mason, and I would definitely miss you if you weren't here keeping us all up to date on whats been going on for you.

I wish time allowed me to be more active, and too, well, I wish there was some current events and/or news that seemed worthy of posting my own comments about, but lately it's just been a combo of not enough time and not much that seems that inspiring to me.  Hopefully that will change over the new year.

Anyway, while I'm here, let me take a few seconds to say Happy New Year! and best wishes for a great one for everyone.

Reply #8 from JoeUser Forums Top

I would miss you too. New Years Eve can be such a blessing or pain in the ass. 

I'm glad you got some sleep.

Reply #9 from Stardock Forums Top

I am glad you slept off some of the darkness.  btw, I'd miss seeing ya, Mason.

Reply #10 from Stardock Forums Top

Your sons would miss you Mason, and all the time you have yet to spend with them.

Reply #11 from Stardock Forums Top

This is going to seem kind of rude Mason, But I gotta say it because I dig you man,.

Get off that dead ass and make some connections with people, you a good man, funny as hell and making friends should be easy, if you ain't got them it's because YOU ain't letting them in, so stop it! I know being a trucker is a good EXCUSE for not making friends, but you gotta find the time to do it. ya'll hear me?

 

Elie

Reply #12 from Stardock Forums Top

This is going to seem kind of rude Mason, But I gotta say it because I dig you man

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I second this.

And maybe you are already doing this, but I would recommend visiting a synagogue in each city you happen to be on Friday's (go for reform and conservative so you won't have issues with going back to your truck afterwards). Synagogues are usually very welcoming and you will at least get some tea and cookies and find something familiar whereever you are!

 

Reply #13 from Stardock Forums Top

A small dog would heal your heart, be good company, and far more suited to life on the road than you might think. 

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Actually, that sounds like a good idea.

I would love to have a dog, but my problem is that I work during the day and sometimes travel for weeks. If you are a truck driver, travel and work combine plus you can do both while you look after the dog.

Wouldn't some form of dog also add to night-time security if you sleep in the truck?

 

Reply #14 from JoeUser Forums Top

Trust me someone will miss you, people here would miss your blogs. I am in my twenties and I have so many people around me and sometimes I can feel so alone.  It's something everyone thinks about. 

I am sorry to read about your mom. 

Good luck in this New Year.

Reply #15 from JoeUser Forums Top

 Golly, you're not even really dead yet and just look at all the flowers people are already leaving! :lol:

Reply #17 from JoeUser Forums Top

I'd miss you a whole lot!  Remember,  we've read of your life since after your accident and gotten to feel that we know you. JUsers do care bout you!

Everytime I'm on the road I look to see if it's you and your rig,  can't wait to see if you've grown that dang beard again,  or if you got a new hat....

Hope you're feeling a lil better today truckman

Reply #18 from JoeUser Forums Top

It took you 47 years to realize this... lol. Everyone will be yesterdays news when they are dead.

Reply #19 from JoeUser Forums Top

Quoting MusicMayne, reply 5
I don't even know ya...and I would miss ya!
End of MusicMayne's quote

No, ya really wouldn't, but thanks.

Reply #20 from JoeUser Forums Top

Quoting MusicMayne, reply 5
I don't even know ya...and I would miss ya!
End of MusicMayne's quote

No, ya really wouldn't, but thanks.

Reply #21 from JoeUser Forums Top

I think many many people across this country will remember you and your netting ....
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I assume you mean knitting, but thanks. They may miss my writing about it for a short time, but they wouldn't really me, the person, at all. I honestly can't think of a single person in my life that would actually miss me or feel any great loss if I were to check out this moment.

Reply #22 from JoeUser Forums Top

Quoting MusicMayne, reply 5
I don't even know ya...and I would miss ya!
End of MusicMayne's quote

No, ya really wouldn't, but thanks.

Reply #23 from JoeUser Forums Top

I was trying to reply to the replies but am having connection troubles.

 

Thanks to everyone who replied and although I disagree with those who think they would actually miss my presence on this planet, I appreciate the thought just the same. The thought is enough to make me feel like I have some connection to my fellow human beings even if it is just an electrical one.

Reply #24 from JoeUser Forums Top

Hi M! You don't want to hear it but I do hope the new year will be better for you!  I know it seems hopeless right now, but it will get better for you.  You're allowed to wallow and feel sorry for yourself.  When the feeling comes on, let it happen.  If writing helps to get it out, wirte away, we're here to listen.  Just don't keep it in.  Take it from one who knows.  Did your family received the flowers I sent? I'm not sure.   Anyway, please let me know if I can ever do anything to help.  Take care of yourself and you're in my prayers.

Reply #25 from Stardock Forums Top

Mason, you're Mr. Popularity whenever you hit Applebees.  People like you.  I understand that its hard to have a true connection with people when you are always on the move.  Trucking seems like it would be a lonely lifestyle.  I know you were considering making a career change.  Maybe that's the direction you are headed.  Maybe you could work for the truck company without being a driver. 

Believe me I know what its like to feel forgotten.  That's what makes it so great when you are remembered.  Still if you long for connection, reach out to the people you meet.  Take care of you.  blah, blah, blah, platitude, platitude, platitude ...but really I'm trying to help.  (((Mason)))

and btw the next time you come through Weatherford, contact me.  I'd love to meet you IRL.