A broken, bleeding heart

I have been fortunate in my life. Love has hurt me very little.

As anyone else, I have had a few minor dings and contusions. Crushes of youth that were not reciprocated and the like. The few hurts that were more severe did, as I matured, become less significant. The first time I dared to truly love someone I was one of the fortunate to have that love returned, amplified, and we have now built a life upon that love. Our sweet children are too young to step on our hearts. I have been insulated thus far.

But we opened our lives and our hearts again. And this time it hurts like I can't believe.

So now I know. Now I know what it feels like to open your heart, your life, your love to someone new, only to be crushed. There is no other way to describe it. The pressure, the pain, the heartache. If only it would end.
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bluedev, you sound very much in pain...I am sorry to hear that. Maybe you do not want any responses to something so personal, but for what it is worth, I hope you
will get through this heartache soon.
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Thanks InBloom. I appreciate your kind words.
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Hey mate,

I don't believe there is any way to prepare for the pain of a broken heart, particularly as an adult. Some never fully recover. I sincerely hope you do.

Cheers,

Maso
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Oh Dev....did your foster daugter have to leave? I'm sorry, bud. I can only imagine what that must feel like.
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She didn't have to. . .
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She didn't have to. . .


She just DID? What happened? I'm really, really sorry.....it has to almost like losing a child. No-one should ever have to go through that.
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Oh, man, that's horrible . I'm so sorry .

I'm sure that it's nothing that you had any control over and that nobody did anything wrong, but I know that probably doesn't really make you feel any better

Let me know if I can be of use!

- Stanton

"... to love is to be vulnerable" - C.S. Lewis

P.S. I would have let ya'll adopt me... if I weren't only a few years younger than you
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Thanks Stanton. I really appreciate it.
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I'm so sorry you are hurting Blue.. some folks say that time heals those wounds... I always maintained that those folks are wrong! I hope you can at least cope with this horrible situation and move on. I also hope that this will not stop you from opening your hearts again.
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I'm sorry that you are hurting. You don't deserve to have that pain....but sometimes it's inevitable. Just don't forget that the ones you love are better for it, so don't give up okay?
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Ditto from me too where the pain and hurt is concerned and definately don't give up Dev! Here's a cyber hug to you and yours. (((((Peter & family))))
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Maso: I appreciate your kind words. I know we will heal, but I also know a scar will be there for good.

Dharma: It hurts in a way no one should ever have to hurt. Thanks.

Mano: We are coping as best we can. We will get through, but right now the uncertainty is the killer

LH: Thanks. We won't give up. Even though I would be a liar if I said I didn't want to.

FS: Thanks for the hug. It is appreciated.

Shades: I appreciate the listening ear. Really.
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Hey BlueDev,

I'm glad to hear from you again, but I wish the news were happier. I dunno what to say, maybe something along the lines of, hopefully she learned something from you guys that she can take with her, or re-learn, someday. Or maybe she just needs to know that there are quality people in the world. I don't know. Maybe. Hopefully.

At any rate, I admire you and your family for opening your lives. Best of luck for whatever comes next.

Idealistically,

-A.
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I'm very sorry to hear your news. I am thinking about you and your family...
Nicky
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A: The news will eventually be good, I hope. We are just trying to hang out and make it until then. Thanks for stopping by.

Nicky: Thanks. I appreciate your kind words.
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Awwww damn Doc. I can't imagine how this must feel. I dunno what to say.

Look at it this way. You gave her a damn good home for the time you had her. Take pride in that.

I know it doesn't mean much, and that my comments are a bit late. But i offer my deepest sympathies.

You and yours are in my thoughts Dev.