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How is it that you come to know someone so well and you trust them with your life but then they turn around and do something so horrible that it is hard to forgive them? I just don't understand how it is that every person that I know I end up loving them to death. Sometimes those people end up hurtin me worse than they realize. I just don't understand how they can be someone at one minute and then ten secs later can turn into someone totally different.
The person that I am talking about was like a father to me for most of my life. Then in just a second he turned from being my hero to being the person that I despised the most. This person is still in my life and I have forgiven him for everything that he has done to me and how bad he has ruined me for the rest of my life.
I have been sexually abused by this person for over three years now and I have recently come to find out that I was not the only one that this has happened to. He has gone to get help now for his problem but it is still so hard for me to even look him in the eyes. I still love this person as if he were my dad but I have not completely come to terms with everything yet and dont know how too.
I cant tell my own mother because she would flip out and she is already stressed out over my runaway sister who we have not seen in over four months. So I just wanted to get everything off my chest about this person and how I feel about him but I just want to tell my mom and I can't. So this is my way of telling her.
The person that I am talking about was like a father to me for most of my life. Then in just a second he turned from being my hero to being the person that I despised the most. This person is still in my life and I have forgiven him for everything that he has done to me and how bad he has ruined me for the rest of my life.
I have been sexually abused by this person for over three years now and I have recently come to find out that I was not the only one that this has happened to. He has gone to get help now for his problem but it is still so hard for me to even look him in the eyes. I still love this person as if he were my dad but I have not completely come to terms with everything yet and dont know how too.
I cant tell my own mother because she would flip out and she is already stressed out over my runaway sister who we have not seen in over four months. So I just wanted to get everything off my chest about this person and how I feel about him but I just want to tell my mom and I can't. So this is my way of telling her.
