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Life has never seemed so confusing as it does today. Ive been dating this great guy. I figured he'd walk out as soon as he realized what I had done. He hasn't though. He's come closer. He asked me today if Id marry him. He loves me. In the midst of all this confusion, he loves ME. He hasn't pushed me away, he hasn't asked me to change... He's holding my hand. *smiles* He loves me.

I started out this day in tears. I've hated myself so much the past few days... now I feel like because he loves me, I have more than just 1 reason to live. No one has ever made me feel so loved before. I think he's the one. He's everything I have ever needed and more. I haven't given him a yes or no answer, because part of me has always been afraid of commitment. Im so scared of having my heart break again (condensded version of a loooong story: my ex cheated on me with a bunch of my friends while we were living together I didn't find out until after it had been going on for 5 months.). . . Ive finally made my heart whole again, and I'm just so close to being willing to give it to someone else completely. Anyways, Im seeing him tonight and/or tomorrow. I'm going to give him an answer tonight.

Ashlynn
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
"I want to be one today, centered and true. I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with you..."

You sound so...in love...I hope you make the right decision...don't be afraid to trust this guy. Remember not to make him pay for your what your ex did.

~Zoo
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
Hi... I told him I loved him. I'm now engaged. I dont think he'd do the same thing that my ex did. This one is a preacher, and an amazing guy. Im really glad that I get to have him in my life for the rest of my life. I still have to get over these stumbling blocks that are in my way, but I think everything will work out for the best in the end.

Ashlynn
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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top

Ive been dating this great guy. I figured he'd walk out as soon as he realized what I had done. He hasn't though. He's come closer. He asked me today if Id marry him. He loves me. In the midst of all this confusion, he loves ME. He hasn't pushed me away, he hasn't asked me to change... He's holding my hand. *smiles* He loves me.

That's what people who are truly in love with each other do. They don't run away when thigs get rough, if anything adversity makes them love each other more. 

When things get rough, my husband and I turn to each other.  We lean on each other, we listen and commiserate with each other...we are each other's rocks and shelter, our joy and peace....we are each other's one and only.  That's what love is all about.

How old are you? How old is your finace?

Congratulations on the engagement; when's the wedding?