24 Failures... 24 Tries
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"Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong
And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
I want to see miracles, see the world change
Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And You're raising the dead in me
Twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts."
This song has been playing all day. My tears are falling with every word. Im not who I thought I was 24 hours ago. A few weeks ago I tried to kill myself, only to find that it didn't work and I was scared. I laid in bed crying because I realized I didn't want to die. I have so much to live for. I made a deal with God that I'd give my life fully to Him if He'd give me a second chance at this thing called life. I have to make it worth it this time. I have to prove to God that I love Him. I've let Him down so many times in the past, and it's breaking my heart. That's why I have to change for the better for good this time.
My parents found out that I tried to kill myself, and now they are trying to correct mistakes. They know that they are the reason behind it. They know that they're losing me and they want to fix it. No one can fix this but me. . . And I'm going to. I know this wasn't much of a writing. But it'll have to do for today.
"
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong
And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
I want to see miracles, see the world change
Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And You're raising the dead in me
Twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts."
This song has been playing all day. My tears are falling with every word. Im not who I thought I was 24 hours ago. A few weeks ago I tried to kill myself, only to find that it didn't work and I was scared. I laid in bed crying because I realized I didn't want to die. I have so much to live for. I made a deal with God that I'd give my life fully to Him if He'd give me a second chance at this thing called life. I have to make it worth it this time. I have to prove to God that I love Him. I've let Him down so many times in the past, and it's breaking my heart. That's why I have to change for the better for good this time.
My parents found out that I tried to kill myself, and now they are trying to correct mistakes. They know that they are the reason behind it. They know that they're losing me and they want to fix it. No one can fix this but me. . . And I'm going to. I know this wasn't much of a writing. But it'll have to do for today.
"
