Housewife frustrations

I'm cleaning the house. I just swept up Cheez-It & Goldfish cracker crumbs that were scattered all over the hardwood floor. While I was cleaning, I looked up to find my son jamming yet more Cheez-Its into the file cabinet. It takes me up to an hour to clean messes that take him 5 seconds to create. Scenes like this are pretty typical around here. How can I get any quality mothering done when I'm constantly cleaning, or else wallowing in filth, too miserable about it to do anything at all? Poor Michael eats food off the floor that I should have cleaned, while I'm trying to plan a decent meal for him to eat. A healthy meal. So I whip up something healthy and attractive to a 1-year old, and he watches me with delight. I go to the refrigerator to get an ingredient, and he reaches in there and grabs a Lunchable. It made me mad, because I'm trying so hard to feed him right, and he goes for the one thing I'm trying not to give him. Something easy that requires no effort from me, that he'll enjoy. Problem is, Lunchables are packed with sodium, and they cost a lot, and he never eats anything but the crackers anyway. Sigh. So I try hard to ignore the fact that he'd rather have that fast food than what I'm working so hard to prepare for him. And I set him down to eat a simple concoction of peas, carrots, and mashed potatoes (that's as gourmet as I'm willing to get for Michael because my efforts are not usually appreciated, and I hate cooking anyway). He plays with it, eats some of it, and I throw the rest away, because I know if I keep it ("It's still good! He hardly touched it!") then it will just rot along with all the other leftovers we weed out of the refrigerator on a monthly basis....

The house is a disaster. I'll clean it today and it will be sparkling clean, like a museum. Just like I clean it frequently. But all three of us inhabitants are slobs, and it will be back to ground zero within a day and a half or so. We don't even notice when we undress and throw our clothes on the floor. We don't even think about how messy that is. And then I've noticed a weird thing I do when there's food stuck to Michael, or I'm losing hair, or I've got trash in my hand, but I'm multi-tasking and my hands are too full to make a trip to the garbage, I just throw all these things on the floor, and forget about them...Of course it's hard to forget when we walk around barefoot and everything we've done in the last month is stuck to the bottom of our feet. I don't notice it until I have to clean it up, and I think, "What's wrong with me? Why am I such a slob?"

It's springtime, so I've decided to just make our messes outside. Let the birds eat Michael's food off the ground. Let's not throw food around the house, let's eat at an outdoor restaurant instead. Let's not mess up the playroom. We'll go to the park instead. But we still can't help throwing our clothes on the floor at the end of the day (or in Michael's case, four times a day; he goes through a lot of clothes), and we can't stop the cat from shedding his winter coat of fur. And we can't help the diapers that pile up on our balcony.

A household is such a high-maintenance beast.

Well, our house is still a mess. We can only spend so much time outside before we start messing up our own house again.

I want to throw away our disgusting, dirty, old, hand-me-down furniture and refurnish everything at Ethan Allen. But not only is that not realistic, we'd never be able to keep it clean anyway. "See why we can't have nice things?" haha

I want to bomb the whole place and start over. Or better yet, just run away.

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altho I have no idea ABOUT YOUR MONEY SITUATION, MAYBE A PROFESSIONAL CLEANING, THAT MAKES KEEPING IT TOGETHER MUCH EASIER. shit sorry about caps.
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Trust me, we've considered the idea of hiring a cleaner occasionally, but the bottom line is that we're dirt poor. I should get a job, but that's a whole other painful corner of my life that's too much to discuss right here...
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I can definitely relate. I'm not real big on housekeeping, and we have two rowdy little boys, so it's a constant struggle.

What keeps me sane is remembering that they're only little for a short time and focusing on the humor of the situation. I mean, let's face it, hotwheels in the fridge and Scooby Doo Berry Bones cereal pyramids on the rug are funny. It's the craziness and the "how...why...did they do that?" that are a part of the joy of family life.

I let some things go. The cereal's gotta be picked up before it becomes ground into the carpet, sure, but the laundry pile in the hallway or the mass of crayons on the table can wait. Just the other day I found a backpack filled with shoes on the porch in the backyard. Why? I have no idea what inspired my 4 year old to do that, but meh, putting all those shoes back in the closet was not a priority.

Also, I know that your husband works, but when he comes home, he can help with the mess, too. That's not unfair or expecting too much. It's just a part of being a family.
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TW it's good to hear that someone understands. Kudos to you for finding the humor in it! It really is funny when I find his toys in kitchen drawers, and missing kitchen utensils in his toybox...especially when I find them there while he's asleep. It might have irritated me to find them when he was awake, but something about a little sleeping angel who wreaks so much havoc when he's awake...is really cute.

Yes, and thankfully the husband DOES help. A ton. He's the sane one in the family. Well, the cat is pretty sane too. And the baby. OK, so that leaves me as the only nut.
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OK, so that leaves me as the only nut.


Funny Angela. I feel your pain though. Yesterday I surveyed my domain and just plumb gave up. As I clean my three year old just mess up and so I gave up. I allowed her to create the mess and wallow in it. Then it was bath time and sleep, then mommy went on her knees and cleaned it all up.

I'm learning to let go girl. Otherwise I would drive myself nuts. But from ne nut to another, put your feet up and get a tall glass of something cold and just hang.
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foreverserenity, I'm glad you're learning to let go. I had a case where I "let go" for too long. The mess, I'm tellin' ya, was so bad and out of hand; even our furniture was rearranged in no particular order. Our living room was an embarrasing obstacle course with food all over the floor, furniture, and walls. To say our home was "embarrassing" was an understatement.

Shortly after writing that article, I decided that I was going to gut the entire living room: take out all the furniture, throw it all away, pull up the carpet, and clean every square inch of the hardwood floor until the place looked like the day we moved in: bare & clean. I'm telling you, the only thing that could be done with it was to start from scratch. With help from my husband, we made it happen. We spent an entire day taking everything out, then cleaning. It was a wonderfully clean echo chamber. Food had always been the big mess-creator, so I buckled down and made a new rule: food stays in the kitchen. Period. That's a big step for me, because being single & childless for so long, I didn't need any rules. Not being able to eat in the living room felt so horribly oppressive to me. Until I realized (yet again) that rules set us free. The rule of "Food stays in the kitchen" set me free from constantly cleaning food from the rest of the house. Simple yet profound.

With that decision made, I proposed that we bring the huge off-white rug from our bedroom into the living room (it's always been too big for our bedroom anyway), and take the living room rug into the bedroom (the smaller rug for the smaller room. It only took me two years to figure it out.) So now our living room is clean and white and much roomier...all we have to do now is get some respectable furniture...but that's decades away. At least now I'm not completely embarrassed when / if people come over.