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What a world, what a world. Life can sure look funny three days later. It's not all peaches and cream and happy go lucky, but it's significantly better. I talked to F about some stuff and he said that the reason he comes down so hard on me about some stuff (like the whole suicide thing) is cause he sees me as a better person that him. Like, a suicide attempt would be the sort of crap that he would resort to and that he has higher expectations of me and my capabilites. Still not sure how that equals up to insults and seeming indifference, but I can get the whole why it made him so angry. It doesn't make everything alright between us, but it does make it a bit better. I guess every woman needs a little time on a pedastal sometimes.
A good friend and coworker of F's and someone who is becoming very dear to me hung out with us last night. It's not that uncommon. Happens every Friday when our group assembles for D&D. I'm gonna call him Wookie. Great guy, and has been going through a lot of problems lately, including a smear campaign at work, breaking up with his first true love of his life, and a whole bunch of other stuff that I can't say. He stayed with me, F and Roomie a few weeks ago for a few days cause the lonliness was driving him crazy and really begin to uber depress him. Last night he gave us the biggest "Thank You" I have ever received. In front of the entire D&D group (which is 8 people on Friday nights - including someone that is heavily involved in some of the negativity he's going through right now - Ogre), he said "I wanted to say thanks to Bear, F and Roomie for hosting this D&D group every Friday at their home. They put up with us for hours making their house a mess and just flinging ourselves everywhere. Also, I wanted to thank them for taking me into their home and helping me out when there were some problems I just couldn't face for a while. So, I wanted to say thank you by buying them tickets to see Episode 3 on opening night at 12:01 with me." I was speechless. This is one the kindest gestures that anyone has ever made to me. I felt so honored and touched by what he had to say. Not only for the gratitude, which was simply amazing to me, but for a slightly more selfish reason. It made me feel like I was finally considered an equal part of the group. I wasn't just some hanger-on simply attached to everyone because of F. Wookie took me as a person who has made a niche for herself within the group that is seperate from being brought in by a relationship. And the most touching point of that for me was that everyone else took it the same way. For the first time since I've moved to the Midwest, I finally felt like I belonged here. I wasn't an outsider anymore. I'm literally a part of the gang now.
I guess I should give a few details about more of my social life now. There are so many more people involved with it at this point, and all of them important:
F - My fiance. I talk about him a lot. I seem only to say bad things, but he's really a good guy. I just whine a lot here.
Roomie - Our Roommate. He's a bit out of practice socially, but he is getting better every day.
Elf - good friend that I play D&D with and is married to Neomaster. Wonderful woman. Great in bed too
Neomaster - Wonderful man. Great in bed, just like his wife Elf. Very similar character to me, which is most odd.
Texas - female roomie of E&N. Lots of fun, and fast becoming very good friend on her own merit, which rocks!
Gamehead - Texas' boyfriend. He is addicted to videogames. Very addicted.
Ogre - F's best friend since boyhood. He's big, he's tall, and he's kinda smelly after work. He has a heart of Gold though.
Wookie - F's friend/coworker from way back. He's really hairy (hence Wookie), and also really kind and gentlemanly.
Geek - Wonderful guy I met online who is also becoming fast friend. From the South like me. Great guy.
more to come later
A good friend and coworker of F's and someone who is becoming very dear to me hung out with us last night. It's not that uncommon. Happens every Friday when our group assembles for D&D. I'm gonna call him Wookie. Great guy, and has been going through a lot of problems lately, including a smear campaign at work, breaking up with his first true love of his life, and a whole bunch of other stuff that I can't say. He stayed with me, F and Roomie a few weeks ago for a few days cause the lonliness was driving him crazy and really begin to uber depress him. Last night he gave us the biggest "Thank You" I have ever received. In front of the entire D&D group (which is 8 people on Friday nights - including someone that is heavily involved in some of the negativity he's going through right now - Ogre), he said "I wanted to say thanks to Bear, F and Roomie for hosting this D&D group every Friday at their home. They put up with us for hours making their house a mess and just flinging ourselves everywhere. Also, I wanted to thank them for taking me into their home and helping me out when there were some problems I just couldn't face for a while. So, I wanted to say thank you by buying them tickets to see Episode 3 on opening night at 12:01 with me." I was speechless. This is one the kindest gestures that anyone has ever made to me. I felt so honored and touched by what he had to say. Not only for the gratitude, which was simply amazing to me, but for a slightly more selfish reason. It made me feel like I was finally considered an equal part of the group. I wasn't just some hanger-on simply attached to everyone because of F. Wookie took me as a person who has made a niche for herself within the group that is seperate from being brought in by a relationship. And the most touching point of that for me was that everyone else took it the same way. For the first time since I've moved to the Midwest, I finally felt like I belonged here. I wasn't an outsider anymore. I'm literally a part of the gang now.
I guess I should give a few details about more of my social life now. There are so many more people involved with it at this point, and all of them important:
F - My fiance. I talk about him a lot. I seem only to say bad things, but he's really a good guy. I just whine a lot here.
Roomie - Our Roommate. He's a bit out of practice socially, but he is getting better every day.
Elf - good friend that I play D&D with and is married to Neomaster. Wonderful woman. Great in bed too
Neomaster - Wonderful man. Great in bed, just like his wife Elf. Very similar character to me, which is most odd.
Texas - female roomie of E&N. Lots of fun, and fast becoming very good friend on her own merit, which rocks!
Gamehead - Texas' boyfriend. He is addicted to videogames. Very addicted.
Ogre - F's best friend since boyhood. He's big, he's tall, and he's kinda smelly after work. He has a heart of Gold though.
Wookie - F's friend/coworker from way back. He's really hairy (hence Wookie), and also really kind and gentlemanly.
Geek - Wonderful guy I met online who is also becoming fast friend. From the South like me. Great guy.
more to come later