Who You Gonna Call?

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Started studying Paradise Lost in English. Pretty sure we hadn't even opened the book and this girl with the record for Highest GPA Without Ever Opening Her Mind said something ridiculous about how Satan couldn't be a tragic hero because "he's bad." Somehow it turned into a fight between her and I over whether it was possible for someone to truly regret and not repent. She's convinced that it isn't possible because somehow the human emotion of regret is defined as submission to God when realizing you're wrong. That's the definition for repentance. Regret is knowing that you're wrong and being sorry. I can truly be sorry for all the mistakes I've made because I put people through so much shit. But I would never take it back for all the lessons learned along the way. Somehow this girl thinks that perhaps I am the human equivalent of Satan because I won't take any of it back. This is the same girl who told me I was cool last year and this year gives me looks and whispers 'freak' under her breath when she sees me. Is it because I don't live my life submissively, carrying a Bible everywhere and wearing plain clothing with no print on it anywhere, in pastels and khakis? Is it the fact that I don't own a single Jesus Fish tee shirt but I still feel strong in faith? Is it because I know what it's like to live on the other side, to live in the darkness of candlelit circles trying to summon down a moon that never listens to me? Is it because I still love all my Wiccan friends and never mention Christianity in relation to myself to anyone? Does it even matter why? Maybe I'm wrong, what do I know? I'm a sinner. I couldn't possibly know what it's like.
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
Maybe you should look at it differently. True story - scientists cloned a cat and the clone ended up having different colored hair. The point - you sound just like the type of person you are angry about - only you have hair of a different color. The other one uses the term "freak" while you use a longer descriptive phrase (submissive, carrying a bible everywhere, khakis, etc.) that could be shortened into a single word - 'freak.' You're both spiritual. You both have your own circle of friends who are no doubt "freaks" just like you/her. I could be wrong but, you both need to get off on something - she needs to feel holier or more blessed than others, maybe you need to experiment with the darker side of things to feel sexier or cooler than others. It's all the same. You are two peas in a pod.

Be glad when people seem colorful and different (even if you don't like what makes them different from you) because really there is very little difference between us at all.
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
While I can see where the blogger above is coming from, it is still not right to of this person to deject someone because of appearance or difference in attitude. Many people respond to me in the same manner when I make the points you made about the "average Christian" that everyone feels I should be like. God made us differently for a reason, no so we would blend and seclude ourselves from the world. I love your writing Sunday, it's awesome.

But, on another note; do your friends mention their beliefs to you? God does call us to make Him known, and though that doesn't mean shoving it all down their throats, they need to know at least where you stand so that in the future, they will look back and know where all the love you were able to give them came from.

Once again, thanks for reading my blogs and encouraging me to continue. I shall always consider you a benefactrice. Trinitie
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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top
That article kind of touched me.. I'm not sure why but it really did. I don't even know what to say to avoid sounding moronic.... but there 'tis anyhow.

God Bless,

~Dan