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I cant even believe this is happening to me

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I cant even believe this is happening to me

from WinCustomize Forums

I always thought life sucked, but even more so than now.   i  got diagnosed with cancer of the breast.  and quite frankly im pretty numb, i have no feelings to even find.  this is what god has now decided to shove down my throat.  the darker half of me just wants to let it fester internally until it kills me, so i can finally fullfill my lifelong dream and join my dad in his grave. the other half says fix it, get the opporation. i dunno what to do

 

quite franky, im pretty sure most of you are secretly thinking "oh goodie shes going to die...'    I dont blame you, I never wanted anything but to be liked by people. its pretty hard when you dont have a mind that functions like everyone else, so your just not normal in the first place. so it really makes no difference if your liked or not, either way your just an outsider....

 

I dont want anything, reply if you want, or dont reply either way, i have to deal with this my own way.  so if you dont see me in the forums, but you see me skin every now and then, yeah im still here, but what ever my fate is, will just be that, my fate.........................

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Reply #51 from Stardock Forums Top

 Kitty,  I am very sorry to hear about your cancer.  Life is not easy.  But I know you are strong enough to fight this.  We all love you and care about you.   Please seek out a good doctor and get yourself on a road to healing.  None of us know when our time on this earth is up.   So you have to make the most of the time you have. 

Having breast cancer is NOT the end.  I know a lot of women who are surivors.. And you can be one too.   You will be in my prayers, for strength and courage and healing.

Stong mind ..... Strong body...  Please work on both...   







Reply #52 from Stardock Forums Top

Sorry about the darn Smileys,  I have never used this before.. Not smart on my part..

Just meant to send  you a smooch....

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Reply #53 from WinCustomize Forums Top

How you doing Kitty??

Reply #54 from WinCustomize Forums Top

Darn, I just responded to your "I'm back" post not realizing all of the picture. We love you for who you are and regardless of the changes in one's life, you'll still be who you are. good luck, please keep us posted.

Reply #55 from WinCustomize Forums Top

im awsome guys (now)........thanks for your concern and caring attitude.......it really goes a long way (hugz)

Reply #56 from WinCustomize Forums Top

im awsome guys (now)........thanks for your concern and caring attitude.......it really goes a long way (hugz)

It's great to see you back online Kitty, you have been missed around here.  I'm glad that you're feeling better within yourself and feeling awesome again.... cos you're a pretty special lady in the hearts of many of us here who love and enjoy your work so much.

Again, it's really great to see you. :) :thumbsup: |-) :thumbsup: :)

 

Reply #57 from WinCustomize Forums Top

<3  glad to see you back kitty