Blech.

from JoeUser Forums
life isn't always what you think it is, is it?

i wish i could revert back to being 10 years old.

young; naive; sheltered;





life was filled with mud pies and tree houses.

boys still had cooties and my dad was gonna be done drinking soon.

my nana always knew what to do and always made right choices.

bills didn't really cost that much.

kisses would mean "i love you"

i didn't get zits or have bad-hair days.

i didn't have to worry about the rest of my life

i wasn't ashamed to not know the answer.

the "cigarettes" my dad rolled really were made with tobacco.

no one asked me about the future.

(i can't describe how much i despise that word)

gasoline was magically created inside the gas tank.

i didn't care what size clothes i wore or how much i weighed.

i didn't care that much about what others thought of me.



i didn't think too much.

i didn't worry about that much.

i didn't cry about that much.





but i'm not 10 anymore...

those things aren't real anymore...



i'm older now.

older and wiser? i'm not so sure of that.

but life is not what i thought it was.



now

i think too much.

i worry too much

i cry too much.





but isn't that just all part of being grown up?



can i opt out of that???
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
Gosh, you beat me to it! I was thinking the same thing and penning a poem of the same nature, a little different but similar! Aw to be young again, forgetting all about the grown up world. What were we thinking when we were rushing to get older uh?!

It gets difficult but hang in there. Try to look at what is good with you now and what you enjoy and just look at those younger years with fondness.
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
I get that way sometimes...looking back to a simpler time. But pretty much you have two choices: keep looking back or march on forward. And as hard as it is sometimes, you just gotta keep going forth and hope for the best...

God knows I can be a big worrier, so I am not lecturing you from a "look at me; I am happy" standpoint. I understand the feelings you are going through...and basically the best way to heal those aches is to, yes, cherish what you had and what you did and what you were, but also be eager for what this world full of endless, wonderful possibilities holds for you.
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