Been living in the real world!

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APOLOGIES APOLOGIES!!! My dear JU friends i havent forgotten about you!!!

I have been very busy. Work is still hell, and i cant wait for this place to sink, lol!

I have been busy with going to parties of people i didnt even know, haha. And the big news is I met someone. He is very nice and we get along really well.

The thing is I still have feelings for Darren. And I've let this new person know about it already.

I was supposed to go back to Vila for my holidays, but i've decided I wouldnt go. Because if I want to forget about Darren I should avoid seeing him again, right?

I'm glad that I've found Yohan (that's his name by the way) but I hate the fact that when i'm with him I think of Darren so much. Even when i'm in his arms it's Darren I think of. Last nite it's Darren that I dreamt of, not Yohan. WHY?

We've only been together for a week but i'm already thinking of breaking up with him because i feel like it's not fair for him. He's already starting to feel for me and he's told me. Me on the other side I appreciate him alot and I enjoy his company, but I dont have feelings for him, not the same he has for me.

I suppose I'm worrying too much. That's what all my friends say. They advise me to take it easy and see where it takes us, that it's the best thing that could've happened to me. I dont know.

I tried various times to see a different boy to forget about Darren and so far it hasnt worked. Either becoz Darren came back to me, or becoz i went back to him. I feel like it's a never ending situation. Like Rachel and Ross in Friends, hahaha! I'm laughing but it's not funny really.

I just dont want to hurt Yohan the way I was hurt. He's a very nice guy and deserves to have a girlfriend that isnt messed up the way I am.

So I'm not feeling very good. I should be happy and enjoy what he is willing to offer me, but for some reason I feel that it's not right.

I dont know what to do. I dont even know how to tell him that i want to break up. I dont know if i should break up.

Good thing is nothing serious has happened between the two of us yet, if u see what i mean.

Ugh, i'm a bit tired too. Maybe thats why i cant think properly.

Geez this was supposed to be a "hey i'm back" kinda article. Now it's turning into "hey i'm in deep sh*t" kinda article... lol

Sorry guys, I'M BACK and i hope you are all ok :)
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
Good to see you back, regardless. You've definitely been missed, Em. I've been wondering what had happened to you but would never have guessed it was a man keeping you away. I think your friends are right; you should relax and have a good time. If you've told Yohan about Darren and your feelings for him and Yohan is still hanging out with you, then it sounds as though he is a pretty cool guy.
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
You've definitely been missed, Em.

Oww i missed you guys too.

I've been wondering what had happened to you but would never have guessed it was a man keeping you away.

I for one would have never thought it would be a man keeping me away from JU, heh.

If you've told Yohan about Darren and your feelings for him and Yohan is still hanging out with you, then it sounds as though he is a pretty cool guy.

Yes it's probably true. He is a very nice person. And very thoughtful too. I think he really wants to take care of me. But i'm not sure if I am ready to be in a relationship yet. I have the feeling that it's too soon and that i'll probably hurt him somewhere along the line. I dont want to do the same mistake that Darren did with me. I dont want Yohan to fall in love with me and then tell him sorry but i'm not ready for commitment.

*sigh* i wish it was simple.
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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top
i wish it was simple


If it were, then there would be no such thing as blues or country music
Reply #4 from JoeUser Forums Top

Aww babes, first of all can I say just how much I've missed you!  I'm so glad you're back!

Secondly, it's funny how you and I find ourselves in these similar situations, and though I don't really know the answers to our dilemas I can offer you some advice.  I've met a really lovely guy, and I like him, but my feelings for him don't really compare to that other guy.  I've talked to this new boy about it, and he knows where he stands.  I think, as you obviously do, that you have to be honest about these things.  I've sat down and had a long hard think about the whole situation, and the way I see it I have two options.  I can allow this boy to mess my life up when I'm not even with him, and sit and pine for him OR I can make positive steps to change things, and to progress and have relationships and feelings for other people.

It isn't easy, especially as unlike you I still see the bloke in question, and I sometimes feel like I am pulled between the two, but I feel I have been made a fool of for two long, and I should never be with a guy who makes me feel like this.  I think you should stop beating yourself up, and enjoy a nice guy who treats you good, because it is what you deserve babes, and nothing less.  Who knows what will happen, we are young, we should be enjoying these things!  Love ya babe x

Reply #5 from JoeUser Forums Top

Secondly, it's funny how you and I find ourselves in these similar situations

Yea, and San Chonino is going to be very sad.

Welcome back Em!  And as for Yohan, take it slow and just have fun.  Not every date has to be with a 'boyfriend'.  Friends date as well.

Reply #6 from JoeUser Forums Top
Hi Em! I was getting worried too. Glad you're alright!

hmmm, I agree with what Maso, Sally and Doc says. Of course all you can do is follow your heart. Or perhaps this time you should listen to your brain and not your heart, since it's been pining away.

Hope you find the right answer. Glad to have you back!
Reply #7 from JoeUser Forums Top
Great to see your name on the roster again

You'll know what's best to do.

Ya'll come back again, ya hear?! don't be a stranger
Reply #8 from JoeUser Forums Top
aww thanks you guys for all your support, i cant believe you all still care for me and i'm really touched, *tear*

Sally, ya know i've missed ya too, and it's true that we seem to be sisters separated at birth, heh! I've already let Yohan know about Darren and how I feel about him. He said that he'd try to make me forget about him, but so far it's not really working heh. But like I said he has the motivation and is very willing to please me. I just feel guilty that i'm enjoying this without giving anything in exchange you know. It's only been a week so i'll see how it goes.

DrGuy, why is San Chonino gonna be sad?
Welcome back Em!

Thanks my friend, it's nice to "see" you guys again!
And as for Yohan, take it slow and just have fun. Not every date has to be with a 'boyfriend'. Friends date as well.

He's nice and he knows he has to take it real slow. He is already a boyfriend though, even tho i told him about darren, heh.

Serenity, sorry i had you worrying!! I think you're right it's my head i shuold listen to, my heart is just to messed up

Trudy, lol, on the roster, hahaha! Thanks for your kind words and dont worry i wont be a stranger! haha
Reply #9 from JoeUser Forums Top

I just feel guilty that i'm enjoying this without giving anything in exchange you know. It's only been a week so i'll see how it goes.

Sweety, I wouldn't worry.  The guy I met I have known for quite a few months, and I felt exacty the same as you.  I still do to an extent, but it does get easier and better.  I think it's easier for me because the other guy is acting like a complete arse, and just making me think, "what an earth did I ever see in him?"

DrGuy, why is San Chonino gonna be sad?

I think it's because his two favourite ladies have found blokies!  Hehe!  Charlie knows we can't replace him though!  We just have to find him now.....

Reply #10 from JoeUser Forums Top

I think it's because his two favourite ladies have found blokies! Hehe!

Yep! Which means less time for him.

Reply #11 from JoeUser Forums Top
i liked ur article. u are really a nice gal n u too deserve a boyfren. clear urself n go ahead
Reply #12 from JoeUser Forums Top
APOLOGIES APOLOGIES!!! My dear JU friends i havent forgotten about you!!!


Bad girl! Now to atone for these sins I want those topless photos ASAP! Hehehe...

Joking, as always, Em. I'm glad you're back and I understand about not having any time.

Hey, give Yohan a chance! He sounds like a nice guy.
Reply #13 from JoeUser Forums Top
I think it's because his two favourite ladies have found blokies! Hehe! Charlie knows we can't replace him though! We just have to find him now.....


Just in time for me to break up, too. How are we supposed to go on our triple dates? Well, I guess I'll have to wait until both these blokes have moved along, and then the three of us can polyga-date!
Reply #14 from JoeUser Forums Top
Okay you guys I didnt disappear again, I just got caught at work chatting the day away, hahahahaha! Seriously!! But anyhoo, back to this heart issues:

Sally, I wish I could think the same. But I suppose I need more time. I'm happy that he's gentle with me. I think he's a bit confused at times, and i totally understand, i'm very complicated... So i'll give it more time. What's killing me is that i want to go back to Vila to see my friends so bad. But at the same time I know I should not, because just one look at Darren will make me forget about Yohan, for sure...

Aww, San Chonino shouldnt worry, he's our Charlie babe forever!!!!!!! lol! Where has he been anyway?

Heya dhawal, thanks for stopping by and for your sweet comment, i appreciate it

JOE!!! Haha! I'm not sure if Yohan will agree about me sending you any topless pictures, hahahaha! Yeah he sounds like a sweet guy, too sweet for me i'm afraid, i'm scared of breaking his heart
Reply #15 from JoeUser Forums Top

Okay you guys I didnt disappear again

We miss you.  And we care about you.  And any one that hurts you is DOA!

But we are fun guys!

Reply #16 from JoeUser Forums Top
We miss you. And we care about you. And any one that hurts you is DOA!

Why are we so far apart, you deserve a big KISS for that comment, hehe! xoxox

And any one that hurts you is DOA!

Personal bodyguard? hehe

But we are fun guys!

Of course you are, the funnest on the net!!!