I Can Still See His Eyes
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I discovered today that they boy I've been kind of interested in these past few months reminds me of my ex boyfriend Ben. It just hit me today when he made a funny Ben growl thing, and it scared the crap out of me. Then I realized that there are a lot of Ben-like things that he does, and it bugged me even more. I had to ask myself, why am I interested in him? Is it because he reminds me in some ways of Ben? I still don't know the answer, but I suppose I'll have to think about that. I mean, if I'm only interested in him because he reminds me of someone I loved before, then that's no good. But if I really like him, because of him, and not because I see someone else in him, then I should go for that.
But unfortunately, I don't know the answer to that yet.
While I was sitting next to him today, I was trying to remember what his eyes look like. I couldn't even remember what color they are!! (I think they're blue, but honestly that's just a guess. I really have no clue.) Yet, I can still remember exactly what Ben's eyes look like. They're a sort of hazel brown with specks, and they have a tinge of green. They're very pretty. It's funny, you know, that I should remember his eyes though I haven't looked into them since last July, and I can't even remember Scott's eye color when I see him every day.
Don't get me wrong, though. I don't think about Ben's eyes every day. Lol I don't think about them ever. It was just, I couldn't remember Scott's eyes today, and I wondered if I remembered Ben's, and it turned out I did. It wasn't like a test, or anything. But it does tell me something, nonetheless... Something I don't want to have to think about.
I wonder if he remembers what my eyes look like? Doubtful. I bet he doesn't even remember my birthday, or my favorite ice cream flavor.
But unfortunately, I don't know the answer to that yet.
While I was sitting next to him today, I was trying to remember what his eyes look like. I couldn't even remember what color they are!! (I think they're blue, but honestly that's just a guess. I really have no clue.) Yet, I can still remember exactly what Ben's eyes look like. They're a sort of hazel brown with specks, and they have a tinge of green. They're very pretty. It's funny, you know, that I should remember his eyes though I haven't looked into them since last July, and I can't even remember Scott's eye color when I see him every day.
Don't get me wrong, though. I don't think about Ben's eyes every day. Lol I don't think about them ever. It was just, I couldn't remember Scott's eyes today, and I wondered if I remembered Ben's, and it turned out I did. It wasn't like a test, or anything. But it does tell me something, nonetheless... Something I don't want to have to think about.
I wonder if he remembers what my eyes look like? Doubtful. I bet he doesn't even remember my birthday, or my favorite ice cream flavor.
