I'm So Freaking Indecisive!
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Really, I don't have low self-confidence. I know many people who can't make up their minds don't think highly of themselves. I don't really think highly of myself either, but I'm happy with who I am. Of course, almost all of us have those few things that we would change about our physical appearance, and I'm no exception. I have long, blonde hair, but lately I've been thinking about dying it dark, dark brown. I think it would be awesome on me, especially with my dark blue eyes. So I call the local Salon and ask them if they can dye it almost black, under the condition that it will be a washout. The owner tells me that when blondes dye their hair darker it stays that way. So basically if I want dark hair, temporarily I would have to have it dyed back, which is something I'm not too thrilled about. Talk about damagem to already damaged hair. I usually don't care what people think, and I still don't, but my boyfriend was thrilled when I told him my plans to become a temporary burnette. Now really, I don't even care what he thinks... I mean, if he doesn't like me and who I am and what I'm about, that's no one's problem but his own. Yet still, that was another plus to dying my hair. Oh well, blonde am I and blonde will I remain.
So then my mom starts talking about cutting my hair and how great she'll make it look, but I'm a big coward. I'm fairly daring when it comes to other things; usually not too nervous when it comes to change, but there's something about my hair... maybe it's the fact that it took forever and a day to get my hair to my waist. But another problem is that I never even wear it down, I always pull it up, because it's so frizzy. So then I start thinking maybe I'll get a spiral perm. That'd be cool, and my hair wants to be curly but seems to need help, so maybe that's what I'll do. I'm a white girl, but cornrows would be cool, then I'd be accused of being a wigger, right? Then again, I don't care what people think either. I had my hair in braids at one point, but that was when I was younger. It stinking rocked. I didn't have to do anything for it, save wash it every other day, but now my hair is so thin on the ends that I don't think it'd work well. Plus, I don't have the time or energy to braid yard long hair. Or, maybe I should cut my hair a good couple inches and spiral curl it all over my head. That'd be pretty cute on me, I think... but it's not exactly "cute" that I'm trying to achieve. Maybe I should just dye my hair dark, permenently. Boys like dark hair anyway, right?
I think I should become a salon owner when I'm out of stupid high school. I have so many ideas of what to do, but right now, today, I'm too scared to do any of them on myself. If only hair grew an inch a day. That'd be the greatest thing! So, is that it, should I open a salon? Or would that take too much time away from my becoming a model (ha, a new recent idea I thought up!). I'm sure I'm sounding quite immature, not to mention boring, right now, so I will bore you no longer. I guess I either need to accept what God gave me or be brave enough to do something different.
So then my mom starts talking about cutting my hair and how great she'll make it look, but I'm a big coward. I'm fairly daring when it comes to other things; usually not too nervous when it comes to change, but there's something about my hair... maybe it's the fact that it took forever and a day to get my hair to my waist. But another problem is that I never even wear it down, I always pull it up, because it's so frizzy. So then I start thinking maybe I'll get a spiral perm. That'd be cool, and my hair wants to be curly but seems to need help, so maybe that's what I'll do. I'm a white girl, but cornrows would be cool, then I'd be accused of being a wigger, right? Then again, I don't care what people think either. I had my hair in braids at one point, but that was when I was younger. It stinking rocked. I didn't have to do anything for it, save wash it every other day, but now my hair is so thin on the ends that I don't think it'd work well. Plus, I don't have the time or energy to braid yard long hair. Or, maybe I should cut my hair a good couple inches and spiral curl it all over my head. That'd be pretty cute on me, I think... but it's not exactly "cute" that I'm trying to achieve. Maybe I should just dye my hair dark, permenently. Boys like dark hair anyway, right?
I think I should become a salon owner when I'm out of stupid high school. I have so many ideas of what to do, but right now, today, I'm too scared to do any of them on myself. If only hair grew an inch a day. That'd be the greatest thing! So, is that it, should I open a salon? Or would that take too much time away from my becoming a model (ha, a new recent idea I thought up!). I'm sure I'm sounding quite immature, not to mention boring, right now, so I will bore you no longer. I guess I either need to accept what God gave me or be brave enough to do something different.
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